Written on April 16, 2026
This weekend marked the first official weekend that he has been gone so I did not do much this weekend
Written on April 10, 2026
Today was the final day that I could take it off and I return to work on Monday. I kept hoping that you would contact me and this was not real but it is. I wish that you were here.
Today I am feeling a little bit better but it still comes in waves.
Written on April 9, 2026
I can't believe that we are almost a week since we last did anything for us. I wish that you were here. I wish that I did not have to go through this without you.
Today I did not want to go to work but I finally started to do things around here and make sure that they got cleaned up. The apartment was getting bad.
Written on April 7, 2026
I did not want to go to work again. I just wanted time to think about everything that happen and to process what I went through. This whole grieving process has been hard for me. The nights and the mornings are rough.
Written on April 6, 2026
I can't believe that it's been two days since he passed away. I wish that I could say that I focused on my grief but someone would not let me. I just wish that he was still here with me.
It's getting a little easier but not by much.
Written on April 5, 2026
I woke up around 3am after going to bed around 1am so I only had two hours of sleep. I just can't believe that he is really gone. I kept hoping that he was alive.
I did not really do anything today but laundry.
I had decided to do a private gathering in Vancouver where he wanted to be.
Written on April 4, 2026
This morning, I got up and got ready for the day. I was going down to Salem and getting him.
I hope that this is the last time that I have to do this because this week suck so bad.
I got down to Salem and then waited for about three hours before heading back home. I had texted and called him to get him to talk to find out what happen. He did not answer the phone or any of my text messages but now I know why around 4:30pm
It turned out that he passed away. I ended up going up to my parents house.
Welcome back another weekend vlog recap.
Friday: Today I did some things to help with my friend before relaxing. I could not shake this bad feeling that I had before going to bed.
Saturday: This morning, I woke up and got ready for things to do. Then I went to Salem and made it there in record time. I was there for about three hours before heading back to home. I found out a few hours later to find out that he passed away through facebook. I was in a mess and bad state and went up to the moutnain.
Sunday: After barely sleeping, I got up and ready for the day. I decided that I did not want to go to easter lunch and went to church instead. I then came back home and just relaxed the best that I could for the rest of the night.
Written on March 30, 2026
Today I managed to call out of work and then worked on her bills. I still did not feel good but yet pulled through it.
He wanted to go to Goodwill and then go to do door dash and I said that we would but then he changed his mind
I ended up having to take him to Clackmas town center before heading back home and then relax
