Goodbye April

 I can't believe that today is the last day of April

Weekend Vlog: April 10 to 12

 This weekend marked the first official weekend that he has been gone so I did not do much this weekend

Return to work

 Today marks the first day that I will return to work before Easter. 

No work for one week

During the week of April 4 to 11, I had decided to take the week off so I could emotionally heal a little better but it is still hard. I still miss him

Thanksgiving Countdown

 We have seven months until Thanksgiving

Three weeks since his death

 Today marks three weeks since he passed away unexpectedly.

Day in the life: April 10, 2026

  Written on April 10, 2026

Today was the final day that I could take it off and I return to work on Monday. I kept hoping that you would contact me and this was not real but it is. I wish that you were here. 

Today I am feeling a little bit better but it still comes in waves.

Day in the life: April 9, 2026

  Written on April 9, 2026

I can't believe that we are almost a week since we last did anything for us. I wish that you were here. I wish that I did not have to go through this without you. 

Today I did not want to go to work but I finally started to do things around here and make sure that they got cleaned up. The apartment was getting bad.

Day in the life: April 8, 2026

 Written on April 8, 2026

I still did not go to work today

Day in the life: April 7, 2026

Written on April 7, 2026

I did not want to go to work again. I just wanted time to think about everything that happen and to process what I went through. This whole grieving process has been hard for me. The nights and the mornings are rough.

Day in the life: April 6, 2026

  Written on April 6, 2026

I can't believe that it's been two days since he passed away. I wish that I could say that I focused on my grief but someone would not let me. I just wish that he was still here with me.

It's getting a little easier but not by much.

Day in the life: April 5, 2026

 Written on April 5, 2026

I woke up around 3am after going to bed around 1am so I only had two hours of sleep. I just can't believe that he is really gone. I kept hoping that he was alive.

I did not really do anything today but laundry.

Two weeks since he passed away

 Today marks two weeks since he passed away.

Salem or private gathering with a friend

 I had decided to do a private gathering in Vancouver where he wanted to be.

His Funeral

 Today marks his funeral in which I am not sure about driving down there.

First Easter without him

 I can't believe this past Easter was his first Easter in heaven.

Day in the life: April 4, 2026

  Written on April 4, 2026

This morning, I got up and got ready for the day. I was going down to Salem and getting him.

I hope that this is the last time that I have to do this because this week suck so bad. 

I got down to Salem and then waited for about three hours before heading back home. I had texted and called him to get him to talk to find out what happen. He did not answer the phone or any of my text messages but now I know why around 4:30pm

It turned out that he passed away. I ended up going up to my parents house.

Weekend Vlog: April 3 to 5

 Welcome back another weekend vlog recap.

Friday: Today I did some things to help with my friend before relaxing. I could not shake this bad feeling that I had before going to bed.

Saturday: This morning, I woke up and got ready for things to do. Then I went to Salem and made it there in record time. I was there for about three hours before heading back to home. I found out a few hours later to find out that he passed away through facebook. I was in a mess and bad state and went up to the moutnain.

Sunday: After barely sleeping, I got up and ready for the day. I decided that I did not want to go to easter lunch and went to church instead. I then came back home and just relaxed the best that I could for the rest of the night.

Day in the life: March 30, 2026

 Written on March 30, 2026

Today I managed to call out of work and then worked on her bills. I still did not feel good but yet pulled through it.

He wanted to go to Goodwill and then go to do door dash and I said that we would but then he changed his mind 

I ended up having to take him to Clackmas town center before heading back home and then relax

One week since his death

 I can't believe that it's been one week since he passed away.

No work for one week

 I ended up taking this week off from work.

Bad news comes

 On the night on April 4th, I found out that he passed away through facebook. I could not believe it.

Weekend Vlog: March 27 to 29

 Welcome back to another weekend vlog.

Friday: Tonight we just relaxed for the rest of the night.

Saturday: I did laundry and then relaxed for the rest of the night. Today was his birthday.

Sunday: Today was another good day.

Monday: Today was another good day with him and then he decided to go home.

Fresh start with Uber Eats

 When I signed up with Uber Eats, I had every intention to do it. I am planning to start up with it.

Return to door dash again

 Today I will hopefully return to door dash but I do not know. Someone has been on my mind all day.

Easter 2026

 Happy Easter everyone

Tomorrow is Easter

 I can't believe that tomorrow is Easter.

Saying goodbye to someone for now

 About two weeks, I drove down to Salem and picked someone up. Then he stayed for a little over two weeks and then broke the news that he was leaving on Monday (March 30th).

Life at the apartment feels like something is missing and I don't know how to fill the missing spot nor do I want to.

I just want him back here.

Blocked by a family member

 If family is supposed to be everything to others and myself than why the heck would you block me?

You could have said no or you could have asked me what is going on but instead you decided to block me, but you know what it is fine with me. 

I know that you read this but it's okay I am fine. 

Hello April 2026

 A month without a birthday!

This month, we have Easter and April Fool's day! I have one scheduled day off and it's today.